music and life

hey kids, so I have been listening to a lot of music lately. And those of you who know me well are saying like "so what?..you always listen to a lot of music." Well a lot more than usal , because a lot of weird and wacky stuff has been going on and I'm looking for an escape I guess. Well a couple of Relient K songs have really hit home with me that last few days in where I'm at right now with God, girls, and life in general. The songs are "I So Hate Consequences " and "Overthinking" , I don't know why but I really took the time to actual here there lyrics and noticed that it was like the soundtrack to my life at this present moment. (That whole last sentence was kind of redundant..) But anyway, I thought I would share the lyrics of those songs with all yall down here.
"I So Hate Consequences"And I’m good, good, good to go I got to get away Get away from all of my mistakesSo here I sit looking at the traffic lightsThe red extinguishes the hope that the green ignitesI want to run away I want to ditch my lifeCause all of my mistakes keep me awake at nightAnd after all of my alibis desert meI just want to get byI don’t want nothing to hurt meI had no idea where my head was at But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at thatBecause I just want for all of this to endAnd I so hate consequencesAnd running from you is what my best defense isConsequencesOh God, don’t make me face up to thisAnd I so hate consequencesAnd running from you is what my best defense isCause I know that I let you downAnd I don’t want to deal with thatIt just now hit me this is more than just a set backAnd when you spelled it out, well, I guess I didn’t get thatAnd every trace of momentum is goneAnd this isn’t turning out the way I want And after all of my alibis desert meI just want to get byI don’t want nothing to hurt meI had no idea where my head was at But if my heart says I’m sorry can we leave it at thatBecause I just want for all of this to endAnd I spent all last nightTearing downEvery stoplightAnd stop sign in this townNow I think there mightBe no way to stop me nowI'll get away despiteThe fact I’m so weighed downAll of my escapes have been exhaustedI thought I had a way but then I lost itAnd my resistance was once much strongerAnd I know I can't go on like this much longerWhen I got tired of running from youI stopped right there to catch my breathThere your words they caught my ears You said, “I miss you son. Come home”And my sins, they watched me leaveAnd in my heart I so believed The love you felt for me was mine The love I’d wished for all this timeAnd when the doors were closedI heard no I told so’sI said the words I knew you knewOh God, Oh God I needed youGod all this time I needed you, I needed youAnd I so hate consequencesAnd running from you is what my best defense isI hate these consequencesBecause I know that I let you downNow I don't wanna deal with that
This one the last part hit me like straight to the heart. The part that says "when I got tired of running from you.." For a long time now I think that's what I have been doing , is turning away from God and running, but now I can't go on without him. He is saying to me " I miss you son come home..." Maybe I'm a sap , but when I heard that part of the song I really in all honesty started to cry. God really spoke to me through that . Man..good stuff..

"Over Thinking"i was thinkingover thinkingcause there's just too many scenariosto analayzelook in my eyescause you're my dream please come truei was thinkingover thinkingabout exactly how i'm not exactly himi'll break my heart in twomore times than you could ever docause you're my dream please come truecause i think way too muchon a one track mindand you're so out of touchcause i'm so far behindi can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done beforeand if there's one in this world,you let me know you're not that girli was sinkinglower, sinkingcause i lost the things i held on tothey let me think a thoughta thought that i would know was notof seeing my dream come truei was thinkingover thinkingabout how far i had let this goone more guy/girl chichéi know now you're just in the wayof me and my dream come truecause i think way too muchon a one track mindand you're so out of touchcause i'm so far behindi'm trying to make senseout of all of thiswhile your fading scentjust slips through my gripi can't deny this anymore, the facts ignored all done beforeand if there's one in this world,you let me know you're not that girldon't touch the positive with the negative enddon't touch the positive with the negative endcause after all of the sparks you're still alone in the darkcause after all of the sparks you're left alone in the darkand while i'm able, i think i'll labelexperience with you as a mistakeand while i'm at it, i'll say i've had itexperience with you is a mistakecause i think way too muchon a one track mindand you're so out of touchcause i'm so far behindi'm trying to make senseout of all of thiswhile your fading scentjust slips through my gripi was thinkingover thinkingcause there's just too many scenariosto think aboutto figure outif you're my dream please come true
Yeah this song right here almost explains how I feel right now as far as me and relationships are going. Its all been kind of crazy lately, and I'm not to sure if maybe its a distraction , or a sign either good or bad. But most definatly it put my feelings into lyrics..
So yeah , music has been an awesome thing for this week.And if haven't heard either one of those songs..go do that cause they are awesome.
anyways..im out
-Ross