only days away

Here I am , just days before I’m leaving to go off to college and I’m scared and excited all at the same time. But what or where if you will does the fear come from? It’s not like I’ve never been away from home before. But never this long , all the summer camps I ever went to or trips I went on were only a week and I was so glad to be gone. And this time I think I’ll be glad to be on my own in a since away at school, a new chance for me too do and see things I’ve never done and thats the exciting thing I think. So I guess the word to sum it all up is that I’m anxious and just itching you know to go and explore on my own for really the first time and my life. But as I look back as much as I get from my parents Im a pretty independt guy already , I know how to do almost every household task you could think of like washing clothes etc, etc . So I think I’m ready for that part of life . The hard thing is it really wasn’t until this last year of high school that I really started to reach out and try to meet people, girls in paticular. It was I don’t know..a sorta fear of rejection thing in the past and this year I just found if your open and hinest with people and put yourself out there , most people will like you. And I hope that I can carry that postive energy into college and make a lot of friends and hopefully meet that one girl of my dreams.. Yeah I know t all sound’s crazy but that’s pretty much how I’ve always seen things , in my own little chaotic way...

today is the first day in twelve years no wait , 13 years that i havent started school along with everyone else , thats so weird im telling you, cause after that many years it was kinda routine you know , but now i dont even start class until next monday , so its like really weird , cause my brother and my mom , who is a teacher had to go back today and my dad had to work so Im stuck here all alone at my house well at least for only two more days...