only days away

Here I am , just days before I’m leaving to go off to college and I’m scared and excited all at the same time. But what or where if you will does the fear come from? It’s not like I’ve never been away from home before. But never this long , all the summer camps I ever went to or trips I went on were only a week and I was so glad to be gone. And this time I think I’ll be glad to be on my own in a since away at school, a new chance for me too do and see things I’ve never done and thats the exciting thing I think. So I guess the word to sum it all up is that I’m anxious and just itching you know to go and explore on my own for really the first time and my life. But as I look back as much as I get from my parents Im a pretty independt guy already , I know how to do almost every household task you could think of like washing clothes etc, etc . So I think I’m ready for that part of life . The hard thing is it really wasn’t until this last year of high school that I really started to reach out and try to meet people, girls in paticular. It was I don’t know..a sorta fear of rejection thing in the past and this year I just found if your open and hinest with people and put yourself out there , most people will like you. And I hope that I can carry that postive energy into college and make a lot of friends and hopefully meet that one girl of my dreams.. Yeah I know t all sound’s crazy but that’s pretty much how I’ve always seen things , in my own little chaotic way...

today is the first day in twelve years no wait , 13 years that i havent started school along with everyone else , thats so weird im telling you, cause after that many years it was kinda routine you know , but now i dont even start class until next monday , so its like really weird , cause my brother and my mom , who is a teacher had to go back today and my dad had to work so Im stuck here all alone at my house well at least for only two more days...

Only two more..

well here i sit writing this on my brand spaking new laptop,yes the one which I bought for college and its so cool, my inside joke around here is that this one has sound, my familoes sound card on the family comp decideed that it dosent want to work any more so , i was like computers have sound? but anyway you probably dont find that the least bit funny because in written form its not really that funny , but anywho, i only have 14 days left before im off to school , man thats crazy ythis summer has gone by so fast, but im so ready to go up there and get my edumaction..lmao,but well see how it all goes i think it well go well because when i went to the new student conference I felt that they really wantedme to succed there , something I didnt really get from any other school, i felt that they really cared about you as a student and not just some number in their system, I also meet my roomate , he seems to be really cool from the few minutes i talked to him and the emails we've sent back anf forth , so i think i am not going to have any trobule aas far as roomates go..and since i only have two weeks left actually before i go that means that in ten days it will be my last day at Super S Foods, at least until the holidays when i will come back for about a month , or a little less than that and work there, which brings me to another point of this: that i thinki may have already gotten another job at Amarillo Country Club , working in the bagroom, which i used to do at the country club here in Kerrville so thats pretty cool , I might look for a job thats closer though , well thats about it..